Animal Farm

This 94 paged book was done in a span of about 2 hours per say. Within the 2 hours i have been accustomed to acknowledge the book in many different ways. One being, putting myself in the book; as a character itself, to see what would i do in its, his or hers position at the time of the trial. This book is about animals who decide to overthrow the farm they are held at due to improper care of their farmer. Pigs being the smartest lead the farm, take part in making such commandments that demean anything that has two legs(ie: humans). In the novel slowly pigs start to abuse their power and follow there own way while the other animals are still slaves, tending and catering to the leaders.

any-fucking-ways. Gander on this shit, pretty insane.

You have been living for 19 years, 5 months, and 30 days.
Your age in months - 233 months
Your age in weeks - 1017 weeks
Your age in days - 7123 days
Your age in hours - 170952 hours
Your age in minutes - 10257120 minutes
Your age in seconds - 615427200 seconds

Whisky

Anyways, don't mind the picture. My long anticipated trip brings me to my ecstasy. Family time and also not to mention my alone time(no "emo" intended). The destination is as listed, Port of Miami, Bahamas, and Puerto Rico. I cant wait. But its my serenity and created ambiance that I, personally can't wait for. Its one moment where I'm at the back of the boat, its quiet. You look around nothing surrounds but water and the glisten of the moon is on you. The only thing you can hear is the waves crashing. This my friends, is my point of nirvana. I feel relaxed, at this state i can easily re-connect myself with my body, mind, and soul. Its a sensation that I am long awaiting for.

im on the phone

with this girl :)

dude

i love my mom

Oscar The Fish

RIP OSCAR

We had our times when i fed you. You were a gnarly african tropical fish with beautiful colors. Black on orange, kinda like a tiger you know. Your in Fish heaven now, and we got the culprit who killed you trapped in a fish net; you wont be seeing him anytime soon. Anyways watch over your buddies in our tank and may you rest in fish paradise. I'm sure your watching us now and getting bigger and maybe fatter cause i know God is feeding you a lot of those pellets you love. Pantoja's will miss you greatly.

asdf

FAK AFFFF EH

The Death of Me

"Do I have nothing good left to say
Do I need whiskey to start fueling my complaints
People love to drink their troubles away
Sometimes I feel that I’d be better off that way"

-Dallas Green
"The Death of Me"







Memories begin today.

My horoscope on the 24

stated that i should "write 5 things in my past i remember without getting emotional, and write them down." And that was that, in my head i expressed my self in many ways so here we go:

(5)I took up skateboarding, again. But to my avail i started landing tricks that i was doing in grade 6, great accomplishment with great friends to accompany me through my hard times.

(4)GOT INTO COLLEGE!, biggest perk in my life knowing that I myself can achieve regardless of how I can act and what i do as a person.

(3)GOT KICKED OUT OF COLLEGE, pretty much a smack in my face. Turned my life around with this one.

(2)I started a blogspot where i can openly express myself when i dont have anyone to talk to, its a relief that i love. Something like mind masturbation.

(1)First Girlfriend, first heartbreak; its life.

Thats all.

oh hey

"Let hate save you, when nothing else will"

The day

The spark, the lust, the love.
Halloween.

What initiated us, remembering what i said to what you said last. Just like it was yesterday. Not to dwell in the past i choose to move forward.



“We should regret our mistakes and learn from them, but never carry them forward into the future with us.”

I am.

Nothing, one without. But with something that no one has. That one thing that no one has is me. Me meaning MY thoughts, MY mind, and MY. My thoughts is what keeps me alive. My mind feeds the thoughts.

My Sensible Heart

The song is very calming, a song i can relate too. So to whomever; deepest apologies.

My life is overwhelmed with hardships that sail me to success, i fight those waves to where i want to be and where i want to place my future. In meaning the quote stated before, has made me realized that you can be a failure but to an extent. As some of you may know, yes i have failed college. But for now, I AM learning from that past mistake and yes, pursuing. My backtrack led me to night school to get that extra marks to get back into college and fix my own fault. Show those people who i really am to what i am NOT, to what i DON'T want to be.

For now folks, just let the music linger and allow the lyrics to soak into your body, mind, and soul.

peas.

Quote

"Fail Your Way To Success"

3 days.

3 days, 3 hangovers. AWESOME. Comparing the awesome to last nights party is impossible. good friends, good times, good alcohol. And guess what? It was on a boat cruise, so sick. (but if you guessed if it was on a boat, your good). I love alcohol.

butter tings.

End of the day new post butter tings. Woke up with a sudden tongue lashing from thy parental, yeah. Didn't take it so nice and definitely did not make my morning period. Working is legit labor which enables us to satisfy us with the greed of money. Money corrupts the pure minded with another satisfying greed of which is Materialism. We need that in order to be like that. If we don't have "that" we are not part, nor we are like "them". If the need of money wasn't upon us the world would be at peace, thus disabling the greed of needing such things. Money is essential; but so is freedom of free things(lol, thanks tips). For example, water is everywhere so is grass, but in order to get it we need the money to get the top shot high items to defeat our neighbors in what they have. bullshit.

"APART FROM THAT". I have just realized/experienced/been satisfied by the old old 15 minute oh so glorious break. The word break is time for us hard working people to rest up and go for another round in the environment of whatever the fuck we do. If used wisely you can actually feel the satisfaction, i did experience it. Might say twas awesome my kind sir. Dreadful feeling once you know you have to get up and end thy calm, entrancing break. If not used correctly you will feel like shit coming back up and you will not enjoy it, I GUARANTEE YOU.

Peas.

"Those who fail to prepare, are preparing to fail."

whatever.

I went to the TCDSB, found my way by left turning everywhere. Luckily i have picture almost perfect memory and remembered where it was. Registered my damn self and now I'm in to obtain that damn 4 percent I'm down. But sometimes you have to work yourself backwards to push yourself twice as much forward. Arriving home, some dude was pushing on the 190 so i looked back and felt no pushing anymore lol. That solves every solution to those bus pushers aka assholes. Step 1) Come to a sudden halt Step 2) look back, don't turn fully as if you were going to cuss him. But to a good enough so he can see you are being invaded into your personal space. Step 3) Look forward and continue onto the doors. Step 4) only to be used if Step 2 doesn't work. Turn around fully and ask "Why are you pushing me?" following up with a cleaver stinger as in "You need to pee or something? is there a washroom on the bus? Because i have to go as well". Step 5) Continued If Step 2 doesn't work follow through with Step 4 continued with Step 5, turn back around facing the bus doors, satisfied, henceforth to your seat victorious.

Apart from all that, I have been getting compliments that are making my somewhat down pouring of shit life into a positive one. Just one word that sums up my whole day, "MATURE". Its a word that me, I, Phil can get used too. I guess ill keep this ongoing compliment and apply it to me; by evolving from immature to mature. Its a good trait, ill sit with my back straight with a newspaper while sipping on some venti latte caramel frapacrapacino from Starbucks(product placement rocks). Goodbye immature world, hello new Phil. But at the end i know myself that I'M JUST A TEENAGE DIRT BAG BABY.


Expect nothing, live frugally on surprise.

Song.

Lyrics.

"Do the words Still Love You give you security?"

Sick mellow song by mister Jonny Craig*applaud*. Not meant for anyone. I can go for hours with this one particular track. But to my dismay, there is a Part1 and a Part 3; where is the Part 2?. What the shit. Both good songs, with one missing Part. Whatever yo, so my day began as per usual. Wake up shower, then work. But today no work. score. But still keeping me busy with other altercations in life, such as the thoughts in my head about my future.

i have nothing else to say lol.

...smile and the whole world will smile back.

Fucking Happy

So, just a few minutes ago i asked my brother to skate. He got into the sport when i got into it just like any other younger brother. We skated to the parking lot exchanging tricks, he was on my longboard by the way; i was on my skateboard. I taught him everything you need to know on the longboard. Im happy because he is more than a brother now, he is MY prodigy. My gift to him is my knowledge and a new board to be given on his date of birth. To see your younger brother excell as much as you in whatever hobby it may be, is too gnarly. I have nothing but great hapiness in me right now.

Aloha brah, name is Phil; Mahalo.

Day one of qutting was a fail, chinsed 3 bogeys off my co-worker.
thats a tre-fail.

tomorrow better be better.

Being Judged through School.

The concept of school has many characters; bullies, nerds, jocks, rockers, stoners, niggas, et cetera et cetera. But one character is nothing but a mere number, a mark. This mark puts us in our place judging on how capable we are in this certain area. If one achieves more than a 70, one consideres its self as a genius. Averaging lower that given, one can consider themself as a failure. But who the fuck is one to judge by their performance? If we are weak at that criteria and are not capable at that, we are not dumb. Fuck marks and fuck school, it would be pretty fucking stellar if we were born into a certain knowledge and stick with that strentgh forever. Unfortunately, its another figment of my imagination. Fuck school, anarchy. but i dont have another choice.

Bacon and Eggs

(i) The truth. Its ugly and sometimes a satisfying taste to the taste buds in your brain tongue. Opposed to the truth is the lie, the figment of our imagination. The lie can be misleading and make us blind from the truth, but at the same time acquires the same satisfying taste to our brain. The lie is a not but a cover the whats true, and the truth is that the lie is hiding behind the truth; thus making it an ugly truth. No matter how ugly the truth is, just fucking face it. Use that negativity and turn it into a positive growing sunflower, to which makes you a better person.

(ii)"Love is blind. In order to see it one must open their heart; not their eyes".
- Philip Andrew Pantoja

(iii)A cease to the relationship is heartbreaking because opposed to all the good shit, you only remember the bad things that happen. Cause those actually hit the heart, knowing the one you loved hurting you inflicts more pain than actually feeling the love they give.

hmm..?

To be curious or confused about something is not a bad thing, i think it's just question that one particular statement that has an answer too. So why do people get confused? cause they want an answer to their confusion; same reason why people are curious. Sometimes I get confused on purpose to see the answer they give me, but to my own fault i already know the answer. When i then hear their answer, it becomes a bias-argument situation. This happens because i think what i want to think, and that by all means I am right...all the fucking time. But then i think, "do not question stupidity, because the chances are; you will get a stupid answer". If that case may be, i just laugh. This is a random spot in my blurb. blurb. I do not know what else to rant and rave about, but its early in the mid-afternoon and i got more to be confused about, so i shall break it out as soon as i get back from work.

peas yoh.

ROFL

HAHAHA

ROFL

lately.

Lately i haven't been writing on this considering i have no time. My time is being consumed and slowly eaten by the things i do, which in that case being; work, school, and having a social life. Lately, i have also done some thinking; which in that case as well has consumed much of my time creating a cock blockage into writing in my blog. As of right now I am occupying myself with Michael Jackson(RIP you rock star), "Remember the Time" which is a insane song. I dopnt have much to talk about right now, so ill henceforth to my other doings.

peas out.

2Day

i fucking tore down a fucking shed. FUCKING SICK. chilling with a crowbar, goggles, a mask, a hat, and my fucking supreme power. only if my cousin brought her camera, would have been gnarly. Before that dad and i played darts and he merked me, not fair. now im waiting for my couin to pick me up and bring me to my uncles house for his surprise party, woot.

peas out.

Banana The Budgie

We bought four, but this ones mine. His/Her name is Banana

So I Took a Personality Test

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

The Word "Bologna" Thought #12

While you are reading and you see the word "Bologna", do you automatically read how you see it? or do you say it the proper way? In my point of view, this word is one of the most stupidest words ever encountered in human history. I read it the way i see it, because i am a grammar rebel. I say BAH-LOG-NAH opposed to BAH-LOW-KNEE, and/or "baloney". Where in the fuck does the extra "a,e, and y" come from? This is pure English bullshit. Fuck you BAH-LOG-NAH and your fucking mother.

Sick Song#1

That's right, bitch.

Happy Feet

This movie is the most uplifting movie i ever seen. Brings smiles to my face, i actually laughed out loud. Watch it, youll be happy for the rest of your life.

Pop Bottles

OK, start with straight shots and then pop bottles,
Pour it on the models,
Shut up bitch, swallow,
If you can't swallow,
Shut up bitch, gargle.

lol.

One Heart , One Relationship. (Though #11)

A single human body consist of one heart, the one muscle that helps one to survive. Physically and also Emotionally. One beat of a heart can pump masses amount of blood everywhere to ones body, emotionally; one beat can pump masses amount of love to ones other half. If one has one heart and is set to ones other half, there is no other. The word cheat is defined as " To mislead". If one has that one heart to love another, one should not mislead. Your one heart should be set to the ONE person you love, the ONE you care about, and the ONE who your heart beats for. That is why, I personally think people have one heart(emotionally).

Fuck You Cheaters.

Sick

That is TOO cool

I got new shoes, they're made from Hemp.

I got new shoes, they're made from hemp. But i got no new board to break them in.
ahu ahu

Nose Bleeds

They suck. I woke up 1am in the morning, tasting blood in my fucking mouth. I tried all techniques to make it stop; pinching my nose and getting my body to a cooler temperature. None of them worked, so i was like wtfx2. Got up went to the washroom spat out the blood. Went downstairs to eat some gnarly meats with teh bbq sauz, omg g000d. Then went back to bed, couldn't sleep so i listened to some techno music. That shit is mad trippy when your sleepy, but it worked. Anywas that was my night.

^ that was the song i listened to.

Thought #10

This is my first double digit thought, the number 10. Today's random thought concludes all my lonely number thoughts, and firmly introduces my thought that isn't single. What I am thinking, as of right now at 10:53PM, is that i love her. My second thought is that i need her. My third thought is that I long for her. She is the one who got away, and i just realized AGAIN what i lost.

Anyways, my legs are mad tired got a new longboard. Well not so new, but to sort of say new as in received and added into my skateboard inventory. Co-worker gave it to me, rides smooth, ill post pics tomorrow. I still miss my skateboard though, seriously. I like pomegranate juice and plan to buy the 1.4L jug every week, and i still need to buy the damn metropass for june. fucking slacker phil, save your fucking money.

puneeeeeeeeeeeta

Owl Joke.

If a White Owl says "hoot, hoot". What does a Black Owl say?
A black Owl says "Who dat?, Who dat?"

Ahahaha, lol.

A Mean Joke That Will Make YOU Laugh, sure as hell i did.

What did the orphan get for Christmas?
Nothing.


First time i heard this, i LOLd.

Cool Yo

Fuck Off Man

Puneta. There goes my summer, either two weeks till i get enoguh money for a new deck. son of a bitch.

Banana

Thought #9

Not really a thought, but more like a exposure of whats in my mind. I decided to go for a walk. The walk was pretty cool, walking around and realizing how ghetto my area is. Fuck its mad grimey brosefs. Just walking around by myself listening to some music brings peace in my inner self and enables me to free my mind and get to know myself better. I changed.

To conclude this random blurb, this is a quote from Rick Ross.

"Who the fuck you think you fucking with, im the fucking boss"
(Ross,Rick. Everyday Im Hustlin. Verse 1, Line 1)

Mahalo

Mahalo is a Hawaiian word meaning thanks, gratitude, admiration, praise, esteem, regards, respects. According to the Pukui and Elbert Hawaiian Dictionary, it is derived from the Proto-Polynesian masalo.

Mahalo everyone.

Pretty Cool

Thought #8

I ran out of thoughts completely. I cant function, i cant think. But when i do think, sometimes i want to stop. Sometimes it runs through my mind like a movie. In order to cease, i go outside, get some air and chill the fuck out. Either that or play tetris. Man this shit is fucked, im going to eat some poptarts.

Katt Williams

This guy made my fucking night and morning as we speak.
Sheer definition of "lol"

Thought #7

So there is this girl right...

Thought #6

What happened yesterday?

...

seriously, wtf?

Thought #5

What happened yesterday?

Cool, im 19.

With great age, comes great responsibilities...sometimes. Since this is the spawning of my 19 years breathing onto the earth, Ive decided to make a little change to myself.

1. DON'T LIE
2. Smile more
   
3. Be more true to myself, as well as others.
   

Those are just 3 i can think about right now, but it will all come to me naturally. The day of my birthday was awesome, for one i spent it on the phone with someone i truly adore, someone who i can call "my love". love you. Then i got up at 10, went to the dentist. To me it wasnt a dentist, it was like a fucking massage parlor. Everyone was touching me complimenting on how handsome i was. It was a bit eerie. But i got my teeth cleaned today which was the benefit. After that me and moms went to Giant Tiger where i saw long time never seen in a while friend Kate Mata. We bought some things and went home. peas out.

Thoguht #5

I wrote this as my status on facebook.


If YOU read this, i love you.
(you know who you are, if you decide to go back and read this)

On another note. I encountered a tool on the bus today. He was screaming, telling everyone he liked to suck cock. Like really now?, why the fuck would you say that. I totally understand that there was girls on the bus(which were your friends), but it came to the extent to make them laugh by telling them you suck cock? and that your a guy too? Well, fuck your life then faggot. Now, at this point i turn around glare at him and his friend. His buddy buddy said "dude, i think he's scared". YEAH FUCKING RIGHT! i replied post haste! "shut the fuck up, you fucking faggot". I think i turned the table, in which they would be scared. I was disgruntled. So as soon as i get off the bus, i yelled a tremendous roar. A roar that would emabrass him, infront of his friends, and his friends that are girls. I yelled "FAAAAAAAAAAAAAAG!" stepped off the bus and ended the bus ride like that. Looking back at the bus i see a girl giving me the middle finger, i laughed. Fucking faggots.

Thoguht #4

Pushing words aside, going for you.



Thats all.

Brutal Out Boy? Somewhat.

Butter

This is my baby, Butter. Ive had him for about almost a year now. He is a Chilean Rose Tarantula and obviously cool looking. He is the 4th of all tarantulas i have had through my life. Rest In Peace to Syd, Tiki, and Jabba. Butter is the sickest one, most chilling, most gnarly, and most handsome. For anyone that is interested, yes he is still single and likes to mingle.

Describe the taste of water

Thought #3

Im pissed off. Thats my only thought, theres only so much to say.







But i choose not too. To private. So I decided just to let you all know that im pissed.

To Sit and Think

To sit and think is to sit and think.
To think critically about a situation is to think more about the situation your in, and what your going to do about in the mere future. To think about what your going to do in the mere future is to set a goal. To set a goal you must sit and think about the goal, then pursue.
In order to pursue that one goal, you have to sit and think.

I thought while i sat, and i think i like writing now.

Thought #2 (the bus ride)

Bus rides. i took a bus ride, (in which i disobeyed my godbrother). i took a bus ride to markham to give her stuff back, in which she asked back. This all inclusive package including notes,random stuff we made, and gifts(t shirt, and a custom hat). i took a bus ride thinking, i took a bus ride reminiscing, i took a bus ride. i took a bus ride to settle everything, anything, and to stop. i got off the bus ride, skated to her place. i reached the 4 steps, settled the box on her chair. i looked back and never looked back again, this was the last look, the last trip, the last goodbye. This sacrifice was meant for good, for me, was meant for me to forget, for me to stop. i skated to the bus stop, took the bus ride home. The bus ride.

EPIC.

But there was also some other thought on the bus, the one oh fucking two markham. im on the bus at highway 7, settled on the high seats sitting near the window. i sat there to show courtesy for others to sit. i crack open my english decide to read(got it done mother fuckers). But then as soon as i got to sheppard, i realized no one sat beside me. The bus was full. To my pint of view i was awed by the fact that no one sat beside me, for once i felt weirded out by the fact that no one sat beside me. Usually i fret when someone sits beside me, but today no. I felt nice to the world of bus riders and this is what i get, a smack in the fucking face. Im sitting there back straight with a book, looking highly educated in my perspective. But what would be ones social perception towards that, in which they would have the cognitive not to sit beside me. Is the new scary look consists of reading a book in a slender position? i dont think so, i would be glad to sit beside a educated person opposed to a scary sketch looking fuck on the bus. Thank you very much for NOT sitting beside me asshole, im that scary. Just be scared that im more smarter looking and more handsome than you. Fuck you.

lol

Picture says it all. Nonetheless, with my time travelling around i had alot of random blurbs in my head that wished to be unleashed. One, tetris. Tetris is the most sickest fucking game you can ever play on your mobile device(cell for all the youths). One thing i encountered was that as soon as you level up the blocks drop down faster, which to my point of view eliminates the factor of thinking of where to place them, and in hesitation you just drop. i know, lol. Secondly and i think last random ock blurb is that...when my music is playing i pay no attention to it during the playing of tetris, but when the tetris game playing is at a sudden halt, you then would notice what song was playing. During my encounter with this certain situation i came upion the most gayest song in my ipod, "Thats What You Get - Paramore". ironic thing it was on full blast. FML

Forgetting Sarah Marshall

This movie is just too sick guys. It came to the point where i had to do 2 random ock blurbs in under what 10 minutes? This movie goes out to everyone who is in crisis in a dreaded break-up, i highly suggest this fucking movie...just because. Not to rant about me again(although this is MY blog) but it opened my eyes and left my God brothers house with a smile and a different point of view. Thank you Forgetting Sarah Marshall, you'll be in my prayers tonight.

Thought #1

This has been in my had for a couple of weeks now. The shit that has been happening to me has been really fucked. To ones point of view people might say "dude, its just a phase", "bro, forget about her","fuck man, move the fuck on". In doubt i have moved on, but not to the extent where i found love again. Not too sound like a little bitch, but dude...she was my first love, she was everything in my eye, the sun to the fucking moon. But realizing the shit i did to make her leave, and the shit she did to make me no believe was just fucking pointless. "Fuck dude" was all in my head throughout this "phase" i was going through. I went to my friends who comforted me, but i also went to my trustworthy God brother(whom i love dearly) to help me man the fuck up again(which worked, thanks dude). So my overall experience with love was gnarly, but at the same time...to sort of say, "fucked". It was a wild ride, but never again I will find another like her.



yeah fucking right.